Shermance's First Post

Hello all my amazing support group!  This is Shermance (not a blogger) and I have decided to spell my beloved Cancer Hero, or my CCO (Chief Cancer Officer), so he might worry about getting some things done for himself, instead of taking care of me all the time.  Between work, studying for his HUGE Quality Exam on June 2d, taking care of me unbelievably well, and posting his awesome blogs (about meJ) he has been burning the candle at both ends and HIS health has suffered.  Great.  I guess I can update everyone on ME, just not as cleverly as my CCO. 

I’m not sure where we left off, but we went to meet with Jolie, my Chemo Lab guru, on Thursday.  We started with all the patented questions regarding nausea, fatigue, etc.  To which I responded that I feel fantastic.  Scary great, in fact.  I got a little tired my week after chemo after working long days as a hygienist, but it was a great tired!  Jolie looked at us like we were a little odd. So odd, in fact, that Dale and I have been worrying whether they gave me the right stuff or not, but I guess on June 8^th we will give them a second chance.  We got the results of the Her2 receptor and it was negative, which is perfect.  We still have not gotten the genetics results back yet, but that should be soon.  

Not being the “blogger” my honey is, I’m not sure where to go next except to let EVERYONE know how much their words, prayers, and support have meant to me.  To us.  I know that you are the reason I have been able to stay positive and energetic.    So thank you!  Please know I think about you all daily, even the people who’ve sent me kind words through Dale’s work,  and you all keep me hopeful and strong.

So Thursday night was Dale’s “big” belt test for Tae Kwan Do.  I told you how stretched thin he’s been so to say he wasn’t in top "form" would be an understatement.  He wasn’t quite sure which form he was supposed to do, and in the middle of his test morphed the two separate forms together.  It was quite a sight.  Master Niblock even smiled a little at how very strong his form was, and how very wrong.  While I was sitting to watch and giggle at my husband perform, I got one of the most wonderful surprises.  This gorgeous lady with extremely short hair came and plopped down beside me.  Her name sounded familiar,?, but she wasn’t.  I cocked my head, smiled, and asked what her story was.  She has been battling lymphoma for the past year, been through chemo, radiation, you name it.  We bonded fast.  Turns out I’ve known her husband for years, in fact her husband and Dale just spoke last week regarding chemo buddies.  We JUST NOW connected the dots!  I have been so gifted to meet warrior women like this.  They inspire me with their spirit, humor, and fight.    I am so grateful and proud to know them!!!

Logan, our 11 year old, graduated from elementary school Friday and I got to walk the halls with all the small children gawking  (small children really don’t like the bald head).  I finally starting hugely winking at them and they would just giggle and move on. 

I’m a little tired today.  Dale and I went to see Men In Black 3, then got lost in the mall for retail therapy that closed the mall down.  We spent hours and hours and never knew it.  Opps.  I have decided that really, hats are not for me.  Scarves are not for me.  The key is HEADBANDS!!!  Did you know they make sparkly headbands???  OMG!  I can do one for every day.  So much more me I think, LOL!  Maybe with matching earrings???

So much for my blogging efforts.  As an update on me personally, I feel really good.  But…  I will confess I had a really down time Thursday night.  I generally hurt everywhere most of the time.  I have energy, but my bones hurt and it even hurts to breath some times.  It turns out the Nulasta (?) ,the wonderful shot of white blood cells that I thought was so awesome was the cause of it all.  I felt so sorry for myself and even cried myself to sleep.  I woke up at 5:00 that morning and FBC!!!!  If I hurt, F-ing STRETCH!  If it hurts to breath, BREATH DEEPER!  I cannot control so many things, but I can control me.  So I did yoga and some deep breathing and felt incredible. 

I guess I’m done now.  I’m positive, have a wonderful family and friends, have an amazing support group.  F. B. C.  I will win.  Or go down fighting a HELL of a battle.